Isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?

as green as grinch

2009-12-04T05:43:00Z

i hate christmas. loneliness just weasels its way into me, could it be the work of marketing strategies?

of all the days, i just cant view christmas as just another day. could this inability be the reason why i feel so vulnerable towards the forces of the christmas spirit... fuck you santa, i hope you die.

something stupid

2009-11-24T01:42:02Z

i must stop feeling so uninspired and tired.
next semester, no more back log of readings and less procrastination (no kidding)

can't be bothered to put this in a nicely constructed paragraph but its more than the exams that is making me feel fucked. on days like these, what are the chances of finding joy in the simplest things... i want to be spirited away.

a summer day that doesnt disappear, you could be simple enough.

don't bite the apple eve

2009-11-07T17:28:53Z

good lord, exams in bout 2 weeks. shall repaint my room after my exams, i hate how b-grade horror movie it looks when the fluorescent lights reflect off the pale green walls (mom's good intention of surprising me with my room in my favourite color. fav shade, not.) im thinking of canary yellow or cream. or maybe white because im safe that way.

been living cupboardless for almost a term now. just don't understand why mom can't just go to ikea and get one for me instead of relegating the job to some inefficient idiot cupboardmaker.

and no thanks to a certain someone, alicia key's part been stuck in my head for bout almost 24 hours now.

just so you know im alive dear diary.

if misery could be a shape too

2009-10-29T06:03:50Z

googled bento box and lo and behold i chanced upon http://www.the-miracle-season.blogspot.com/
looks like a cheap knockoff of xiaxue (spam pink pink and more glorious pink). first thought that came in mind was 'wah so many advertisements, lets see how good a read she is.' (obviously looks is not the reason why people visit her blog. go see for yourself) its kinda trashy but the best part has to be the excerpt below

"BENTO #6

Rice:
Moulded into cynical shape. Added expressions using carrot and wrapped with seaweed.

SideDishes:
2 pieces of springroll (ready made ones found in supermarket), 2 pieces of blackpepperchicken (marinated ones found in supermarket), fishcake, fried eggs with sliced ham. (+bonus one small piece of leftover fish cutlet)

Decorations:
Grass dividers, cupcake holders, panda bear dividers. flower carrot (use veggie cutter)

"

added the picture of the bento because not many people know how a cynic looks like. im considerate that way.

source:http://www.the-miracle-season.blogspot.com/ esther xie/iceangel

dont say plagiarize or never acknowledge source ok, dont blog mean things about me in your blog if you ever find out. just making sure that people can recognize forms of cynicism you know. plus, i help you advertise to appeal to girls who like badly manufactured bodycon dresses with fringe details haphazardly thrown around and studs MORE STUDS STUDS STUDS and mesh which most blogshop owners call lace. different ok mesh =/= lace. lady gaga will get them in their bed at night for the mix up, they will never sleep soundly ever.

clocked 4 hours of sleep, gonna crash in a bit.
aside from the laughs, i wish i could put a face/shape to such negativity in life. why does shit always find its way to me. i could do better with luck...

ps. being such a widely read blog (relative to mine) shouldnt she proof-read and run a spell check on her entries before publishing them. or maybe her loyal readers also can't tell. like how nobody can tell when soulfucker mangles english in lectures...is it even english he's spouting.

She pours a daydream in a cup . A spoon of sugar sweetens up

2009-10-24T07:54:52Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_HXUhShhmY

keep gate closed at all times

2009-10-03T08:44:46Z

hi excusemy_french, you're 4 already. should you ever be personified, i'm sorry for relegating you to fill the shoes of a constantly depressed whiney assed kid. i have some growing up to do and i promise that if i ever slip into the rut again, i will hop over to blogspot.

i love how constant you are. i love how i can forsake you and yet return to such familiarity.

stay the same for me, and i'll stay the same for you.